Seven

So... awesome news!! I'm officially going to be a bridesmaid!! Now, I've never been one before.. but considering the fact that I've been planning my own wedding since I was, I dunno... FIVE!! I'm sure I know exactly how to be the best bridesmaid ever!

My friend A, a sales manager for an international hotel, has been engaged for a few months now. Just recently she made her decisions on her bridal party. I can honestly say that I was more than happy that she chose to make me a part of her special day. Since I've had so many ups and downs these past couple of years, it's nice to have some good news. And although I would love to be planning my own wedding, I'm glad that my best friend is finally getting married... (after 8 years!)

But all of this wonderful news, makes me think about my own relationship. Will I have to be with my guy for over five years to get to that aisle? Not that I'm in a major rush... considering the fact that I'm unemployed and broke. But it would be nice to know that I might not have to wait as long. It will be two years for us this coming January, and unfortunately I'm already getting antsy for that commitment. The funny thing is that even though it's something that I want so much, I know that it'll be something that will make me completely freak out.

It makes me wonder, why do we as women (and even as just plain human), always want to have our cake and eat it too? Can't we be happy just the way we are (whatever that may be)?

Six

Wow.. how long has it been?! I do apologize for the extra long hiatus!

So, a quick update!

Well, I took the teaching position... and what a mistake that was! I ended up in a school teaching "at-risk youth." Just the memories of it make me want to crawl into a dark corner and cry! Between the hour-long commute, constant yelling (from students to me!), absolutely no management to help, and the ever-existing threat to my life... it was by far the hardest position I've ever had! Everyday there was a new fight.. between middle school kids who were old enough to drive... everyday there were at least two new kids (if not more) entering our school because they were kicked out from their zone school.

By the end of the school year, I had 52 students in my homeroom alone, I gained 10 pounds, and absolutely no money saved up! So, June 2009 I was laid-off, and I've been unemployed ever since. And here I am, in November still looking for a job.

Looking back at my past posts, it's kind of depressing that I was in such agony over this huge decision! I guess that's what Rod Stewart was singing about when he said, "I wish that I knew what I know now, when I was younger..."